On · our · way

The only things I wish for now is for friends too care.
Is it too much to ask for?
Sadly, too much for some.

Am just dissapointed, with every thing that has happen in this short span of time.
Just leave me alone.

It's fucked up to be in love. It's one of the best and worst things that could possibly happen to you. If your loved one loves you in return, it's one of the greatest highs in the world. There's no greater feeling of comfort, satisfaction and happiness. But love can be cruel, sadly. It's terrible to have no control over it. When you're in love, you have none. You are powerless against it. You would always be wondering and constantly thinking about them - are they happy? are they thinking about me? do they care? i hope they love me, even a fraction of how much i love them. What if they don't? What if they don't love you back? It's painful. The hurt is indescribable. Knowing they don't care and seeing it in their expressions, their inactions and lack of effort. It's awful. You can try to block them out of your life, only to see if they're willing to climb over the wall you've created. But do they ever come? You can try avoid them. BUT, there's really no strength that can defeat the will to see them, speak to them, hold them, sadly :( and you never really stop loving someone. You go through a period of somber disappointment, deep heartbreak, and lost confusion, before you can finally learn to live without them. Never ever go back to the same path, as things, would never be the same as in the past again. And after that, you can finally learn to live without them. Never let them into your life, again. Would you be willing to go the same things over again? Surviving heartbreak is seemingly unbearable - it takes a great deal of strength and emotional control to push through the grief. I've friends who took months, days, years, to get over their partners. But when you come to think of it, pulling through the ordeal was worth it, and you find ourself with a lesson and a handful of experience, stronger than ever. Moral of the story, never look back to the past.

Anyone share the same sentiments? Just a random rant as some fucked up thing just happened ;(

And this,
will be my final bow

oh, reality hurts indeed ; (
sadlyy.
i just wanna get wastedd.
i hate this life of mine ; (

It's just slipping by me, day by day and I don't know what else to do.
Please tell me how, if you're looking at this..

Sometimes, I just find reality too cruel. I myself have experienced this shit countless of times.
A friend agreed with me that life doesn't and never goes the way we planned.

Why is it that we can't be happy in life?
Why can't we have what we want?
Why must love be cruel?
Why do we suffer at the hands of fate?

I wish I can ask god all these questions.

Few days ago, me and a friend, walked along the Clarke quay river. We  chance upon this singh guy, probably from India, and someone I find very spritual. He called me and straight away said " Hey sir, you face looks as if you're a very lucky man"
We talked, and he talked about my life. He said 2007 and 2008 wasn't a good year for me. Indeed it's true. 2009, June, will be a start of something very special and new to me. He followed on by saying that I'll be having a Promotion, Good Health and Love soon.
For that moment I thought, it can be possibly true. He gave me this lucky charm, which I still keep it in my purse. But the amazing thing is that he knows stuff about my life and family.

I chose to believe whatever he said.

I've to admit that my life isn't any better than yours. But I know I'm improving in every aspect of my life as of now. I've got a job. I train hard to get that dream weight of mine. I know for sure, that at the end of the day, I'm going to achieve my goal. And lastly friends. They are the only one who I spend most of the time with. And I'm going to cherish each and everyone of them :)

And lastly, love. I fear that I will get hurt again, one day. It's the most cruel thing in life I guess. But we'll see how it goes I guess : ) btw, thanks for d lovely pic L

Tmr will be a fun dayy : )

Take care.

If i could see the future and see how this plays out : (

I think I'm not trying hard enough :((
I'm gonna swear to myself that the month of June,
will be a horrible and tiring one.
I'm going to sweat it out, like there's no tomorrow.
Hopefully, we'll see results :)

On a side note, I guess its getting better.
Everything is falling into place now.

This is Kelly Low Jiayi! I've known her since Primary one, but got seperated after we leaved Primary schl : ( Until recently, we were back into the same class for this semester! : )


 

Had a heart 2 heart talk with a certain someone.
It's amazing that the only time we don't argue,
is when we have this talks : )

And I'm fcking sleepy now.
On d phone till like 7am, and went to jog straight away!

On a side note, tmr Ikea cum tamp1 trip with myn&jo&reiko!
I'm pretty sure it's gonna be fun!



I'll be awake and I'll be with you